"There is no such thing as one Christian." Dorthy Day
I have seriously considered giving this whole blogging thing a rest for a while. As you can see I came to the conclusion that it is still worthwhile. Don't get me wrong I am content and have enough for each day, but I always seem to squeak by when it comes to human interaction. I usually attribute this to my demeanor, and yes sometimes that's the issue. Unfortunately that is also a lie half the time. How could someone who is so driven to find a level of conversation that involves so much trust be so bent as to not engage in conversation?
Half the time I believe the lie that I am the only one.
When it comes to questions and struggles I have like should I lend a buck? I get the feeling like I am the only selfish one who at times is reluctant to lend not because the money means much to me, but the trust I need to lend is greater than the present trust I have. In community there is courage.
Half the time I believe I am the only one.
In class when I feel entirely inadequate to even be at the level my AER point me to; I am convinced I am the only one who struggles to keep up. As if everyone else was born speaking this language or knowing these stories. As if mine is the only head that implodes each and every time a question is posed and I say, "What?"
Half the time I believe I am the only one.
I pine for conversation. Not just about how the weather is or your truck, but to know you. I want to know you. Not so that I can say "Thank goodness I'm not you." No so that we both will find that point at which one of us says, "Yeah, me too."
Half the time I believe we really do constitute a coherent body.
God bless you and me not just individually (which is good and needed), but also corporately so that we might see one another as God sees us.
Extend your hand in fellowship and you'll find someone else reaching out. Stop believing the lie that you are the only one, because you're not.
May you say "Me too" this day.
Blessings
Me too. I guess I am not the only one. :)
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ReplyDeleteI definitely know how good it feels when somebody says "me too", but it's also nice when somebody isn't having the same problem. That can give you hope. For example, this morning I didn't know the room number for my class and I ran into another Calvin student and told him and he said, "I know the room number is H001 but I don't know where building H is." and I said, "But I do! I have another class in that same room on Tuesdays!"- so sometimes the fact that we're all individuals with our own problems means we can help each other out better :) -Also, don't be so hard on yourself just because you're not extroverted! God used Moses even when he claimed to not be the most eloquent of orators :)
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