The art of reading to yourself is not easily mastered. I was always under the impression that the best way to read to myself was internally with a mental dialoge that lacked auditory qualities. It was the epitome of internal processing. I could read anywhere with anonymity. The library demanded this from me, and besides it is just insanity to talk to yourself.
OUR CREATOR SPOKE US INTO EXISTENCE!
Thank God he spoke out loud. His words changed the present situation! Ours can do the same. You doubt this don't you. Yeah you do, because you're like me. Timid and careful. You dare not break the silence, because you have done this before and got burned. Like sitting in class and you think you might have the answer the professor is asking for, but you nearly failed that last test so there is no way you could possibly have the right answer (yeah I've been there). The worst of it is when you let the moment pass, and you find out you actually had the answer. Self-doubt sucks the life out of community. We all know this, but it is not realized until the moments have passed.
I find that when self-doubt paralyzes me I am either worried about what has happened before or what might happen in the near future. I forget my present existence. Every moment is an arrival to a new now. Does this make sense? I demand that you and I live presently. Self-doubt has no place in the believer's life, because the self has died and is replaced by Father, Son, and Spirit. There is no doubt in the promises and present reality of a believer's life. This is not to say a believer will not run into difficult questions, but that those questions will not overcome the faith, but instead strengthen faith's resolve. We, sisters and brothers, live presently in the glory of God. Do you actually remind yourself of this? It's true. hard to believe but true. If he is for us what can stand against us? Why do you doubt? Why do stand against what it is that you so desperately desire? Why will you not enter the holy of holies? You will fail. You have died. You are renewed. Live it! Speak it! I scream this out to you that you might hear it!
"I tell you the truth, if anyone says to this mountain, 'Go, throw yourself into the sea,' and does not doubt in his [or her] heart but believes that what he says will happen, it will be done for him." Words of the Lord Jesus Christ. We try and find the cryptic message here. "Oh he does not really mean the mountain will physically fall into the sea. It's more like our spiritual mountains will go into our spiritual seas....?" You don't even believe this! (I am talking to myself a bit here......).
"Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours." God I ask that I am liberated from the fetters of self. In you there is freedom to love and be loved.
"And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive him, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins." I forgive you for not speaking to me when I looked for it. I grew bitter towards you for your silence. In Christ we are both forgiven. Will you still be my sister or brother? I hope so. I pray so. Let us sit under the shady willow God has given us for this present time. In faith we will pray for reconciliation and have it. A part of heaven here presently. I am beginning to see it! We have it already, and yet not fully. We need one another fully in Christ. I pray we laugh, cry, love, tremble, shout, sit, and be together.
Many Blessings on you this day from the Father, Christ the Son, and the Spirit.
Peace
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